something is comming

So very soon a new career will begin to blossom right before my eyes. This is going to be a very big deal for me and I am quite excited. For the 1st time since I was like 8 I can say I have big plans for the summer. I do forsee some minute issues along the way but it wouldn't be life without a few issues. Let's just leave it with I'm excited!!!!

Your Body, The worlds body?

I saw something online the other day about weather or not posting,sending,taking "provoctive" pictures means you have no self respect. I did alot of thinking about this subject and came to this conclusion.

There is always going to be people who see it as a lack of self respect but there are many other ways to look at it. It could be any of these...

-lack of self respect
-bodily confidence
-self pride
-life confusion
-desparation
-self discovery
-personal likeness

They are all very different reasons for doing this but not everyone does it for the same reason and doing it does not mean you have no self respect.
I personaly feel that if you have the confidence to show yourself off then there is no reason not to.

I have a few pictures out there that show off my body and I have PLENTY of self respect. I'm not a whore, I don't sleep with a million people. I am wise about the choices I make reguarding sex and relationships, I love my body and my mind.

Personaly I do it out of pure pride for all of me. I am proud of my body and have no qualms about letting people know it. I don't mind if people think badly of me for it because I know who I am and random people can not change me or dampen my confidence in anyway shape or form.

I believe that if someone wants to show off for whatever reason people need to allow them to do it. Stop fucking with people about what they choose to do. We all of the right to do as we choose.

wi-fi and the i-pod

So last night I figured out how to set up a network thru my computer and now I get wifi on my iPod in and my house……I know nothing truly worth blogging about but I was excited.

In silence

So here I sit with my mind running a million miles a minute but I seem to have nothing to say.

My heart is gonna heavy at the moment but I can't seem to feel the way I probably should. I actually feel bad that I only shed a few tears in a moment that called for many. Dark hours are here for the first real time in my life and it's almost like I don't notice. Is it shock? or is it simply that I can't feel that way?

And so the questioning comes to this...
Why have a shed more tears over pointless boys then the loss of a loved one?
Why am I so good at comforting people but I can't ease my own mind?
Is there real peace in this all or is it simply what we believe to sleep at night?
Is there a real reason why life takes away amazing people and spares the terrible?
Did he know what was comming?
Will SHE be okay?


Somewhere in the world right now someone is crossing over...today it was my Poppa tomorrow it could be yours.

Please people I beg you now....

....tell your loved ones you love them. Stop wasting time on things you know are not important. Hug everyone in your life like it will be the last time. Apologize even if they were wrong. Hold on to and cherish precious moments because you will NEVER get any of them back.

Life is way to short for small worries and grudges and hate. Be careful who you let come and go in your life.

4:20 inspired.

So yesturday was the all but fabulous 4:20 holiday and as it tends togo I spent 99% of my day in a complete daze. I worked 10-1:30 and when I got home...oh snap it was fucking on like donkey kong. I packed a bowl almost the minute I got home and like 30minutes later a friend of mine came over and we just steady smoked away til 7 or so. Of course I continues to smoke til about 8:30. The only time I got my ass out of the chair was to get munchies and a drink and when I moved to the couch after my friend left.

I was so dazed I was out by 9:30ish. I don't even remember what I watched or really any of the conversations I had except from the very begining of the day.

HOWEVER!!!! I did learn something...Did you know when moutian dew spoils it turns white?

SOOOOOOOOO I'm excited!!!! On May 29th this awsome comedian I met on myspace will be in clearwater doing a show. I can't wait to finally meet this guy. He is fucking amazing. I think anyone and evryone who reads this should come out and see the show I'll post more details as I get them.

Just random bullshitting

So lately I have been running into ones I used to know or meeting new cute guys. I been feeling unstoppable about it lately. Saturday night both of my eye candies were at work and when I got off both of my eye candies from sonny's were there hanging out. I was on hott boy cloud nine. Then last nite I went on a "date" with a guy from work. I had alot of fun and it was good to get out of the fucking house.

Ok well I went and seen kickass and it was simply that!
It had its slow moments but it was funny as hell and in the end it really did kickass. However I'm pretty sure they are going to make another one and I'm not sure I totaly agree that they should as it ended well enough not to. Sequels always suck anyways so why fuck with a good thing.

On the topic of movies...random thought. I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo glad noone has ever tried to remake the wizard of oz. I hate when people mess with perfection. It's rare to find good movies and shit yeah that def was one.