something is comming

So very soon a new career will begin to blossom right before my eyes. This is going to be a very big deal for me and I am quite excited. For the 1st time since I was like 8 I can say I have big plans for the summer. I do forsee some minute issues along the way but it wouldn't be life without a few issues. Let's just leave it with I'm excited!!!!

Your Body, The worlds body?

I saw something online the other day about weather or not posting,sending,taking "provoctive" pictures means you have no self respect. I did alot of thinking about this subject and came to this conclusion.

There is always going to be people who see it as a lack of self respect but there are many other ways to look at it. It could be any of these...

-lack of self respect
-bodily confidence
-self pride
-life confusion
-desparation
-self discovery
-personal likeness

They are all very different reasons for doing this but not everyone does it for the same reason and doing it does not mean you have no self respect.
I personaly feel that if you have the confidence to show yourself off then there is no reason not to.

I have a few pictures out there that show off my body and I have PLENTY of self respect. I'm not a whore, I don't sleep with a million people. I am wise about the choices I make reguarding sex and relationships, I love my body and my mind.

Personaly I do it out of pure pride for all of me. I am proud of my body and have no qualms about letting people know it. I don't mind if people think badly of me for it because I know who I am and random people can not change me or dampen my confidence in anyway shape or form.

I believe that if someone wants to show off for whatever reason people need to allow them to do it. Stop fucking with people about what they choose to do. We all of the right to do as we choose.

wi-fi and the i-pod

So last night I figured out how to set up a network thru my computer and now I get wifi on my iPod in and my house……I know nothing truly worth blogging about but I was excited.

In silence

So here I sit with my mind running a million miles a minute but I seem to have nothing to say.

My heart is gonna heavy at the moment but I can't seem to feel the way I probably should. I actually feel bad that I only shed a few tears in a moment that called for many. Dark hours are here for the first real time in my life and it's almost like I don't notice. Is it shock? or is it simply that I can't feel that way?

And so the questioning comes to this...
Why have a shed more tears over pointless boys then the loss of a loved one?
Why am I so good at comforting people but I can't ease my own mind?
Is there real peace in this all or is it simply what we believe to sleep at night?
Is there a real reason why life takes away amazing people and spares the terrible?
Did he know what was comming?
Will SHE be okay?


Somewhere in the world right now someone is crossing over...today it was my Poppa tomorrow it could be yours.

Please people I beg you now....

....tell your loved ones you love them. Stop wasting time on things you know are not important. Hug everyone in your life like it will be the last time. Apologize even if they were wrong. Hold on to and cherish precious moments because you will NEVER get any of them back.

Life is way to short for small worries and grudges and hate. Be careful who you let come and go in your life.